Dont really like posting negative posts but that is the reality of life: Up's, Downs and In Betweens. I am feeling very drained at the moment. Admittedly a lot has been going on so I know the cause in addition to my body carrying another 'being' which it has to carry for the remainder of the next 4 months. But really - I am exhausted, it is becoming an effort to just sit at my desk and do my work and concentrate on remembering things. It would help if I could remember to take my multivitamin and omega 3 tablets religously, but even this I am forgetting from time to time. All the magazines say eat healthily, exercise, dont forget to take care of yourself pamper yourself... who writes these articles ? Real Woman? I dont think I am the exception to the rule, pregnancy is not all glowing beaming women... Pregnancy and day to day living can be hardwork.
So in between all the moving and selling of our previous home and our nanny breaking her leg and having to find someone to look after Josh and running a home - a higgeldy piggeldy one at that due to the move - all I want to do is to crawl into bed at about 6:30pm - fat chance of that! At leaving work at 15:45 each day which I know is great as some people work until 5, it doesnt mean that I get home and lounge around. En Route I stop at the shops get what is needed for dinner / supplies for Josh / bread and milk, which takes about 20 minutes or so get in the door, plonk groceries down, give my boy a kiss, unpack said groceries, ask how his day has gone, sit with him for a few minutes hopefully with a toy or a book. Get up get his food ready for dinner, feed him, give him some fruit. Then have to get supper going 9 out of 10 times during the week, as Clive normally only gets home around 6:30pm or so sometimes later. Run my boy a bath, start to bath him (get clive if he is home to lift him out of the bath for me as my back aches doing that) dress him whilst perhaps clive oversees the rest of the cooking process for supper. Make his bottle. Try and read to him or interact a bit quietly before bedtime. Give bottle and hope that he just drifts off, if not another half an hour or so to get him to sleep.
And then we cross our fingers that he doesnt wake during the night ..... or very early, my son is an early riser ... pretty much 5am - 5:30am every morning.....!
So universe out there, do you see why I am so tired.....oh yes and in 4 months time add another baby to the picture. I dont mean to complain, I know children are blessings, I know that time flies and I will long for these days again and miss them but right now I would love to just have a break and get away... somewhere quiet where I dont have to be up at the crack of dawn and still see a whole day at the office. But such is life, I AM grateful for ALL I have, I have more than many many out there..... am just offloading my tiredness into the blog universe and hopefully will feel a bit better and refreshed.
5 comments:
Shame Nicci! I hope that things settle down soon. Thinking of you xxx
Hi there honey, I am thinking of you as I know it isn't easy. If you are taking strain, you do need to change some things and put yourself first. Maybe alter your routine slightly so that Clive can help out more. Ask for help from family and friends - you don't need to do it all by yourself. Remember those vitamins and maybe start boosting your immune system by drinking orange juice so that you don't get run down or ill now the colder weather is here. If you can't get away now, plan for Clive to take Joshua out one morning and you can sleep in or prioritise a massage or something relaxing. The reality is there is no time - you have to make the time. Put you and your baby first - things will only get worse if you don't take care of yourself. Take a deep breath in and out and remember you can do this. much love xxx
Only reading this now.. I know we chatted on Saturday, but I agree with Steven. At this time in your pregnancy you need to make yourself number one and tell all those around you (including me I am just around the corner) that you need help. I knwo the kind of person you are.. you want to be in control, but there is nothing wrong with admitting you need some help. And you need to put more of the responsibility on Clive which I know you are going to do. Wishing you lots of hugs and rest xxx
hope that things have improved, that you have settled into your new home and that you are asking for and accepting help wherever you can get it!!
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Advice, advice, advice. It's cheap but not so easy to do! Just do it your way and be as kind to yourself as you can be. You will manage. I know it's no comfort but millions of women have managed and so will you! Good luck Nicci and don't be too proud to scream for help. There are a lot of people out there who will answer the call!
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